Creativity

Creativity-God’s Gift

January 26, 2012

This is a new year and I am really excited.  This is something new for me.  January is usually a bad month for me.  I look back over the previous year and focus on what I did not accomplish.  It is so depressing to look at all your failures.  I would mentally berate myself for letting yet another year go by without making the changes I desired to make in order to make God happy and make my life complete, or so what I thought.  Talk about starting a year without hope!

This year is different.  I have spent a lot of the first month of 2012 looking back over the last year and feeling joyous.  Did I make the changes I thought would answer all my problems?  No, but I looked at what the Lord had done in and through me.  I looked at what the Lord had revealed about Himself to me.  I felt a hope for the future.

One of the things that Papa has shown me is that I am a creative person.  I have learned about a doodling method, Zentangle.  It is doodling with a purpose.  It is a bunch of different patterns with really fun names.  I have always loved to doodle and now I feel like I have found a way to create fun pictures.  I have always been amazed at how my 14 year old can draw a beautiful horse that looks lifelike.  Now I can doodle and actually feel like I am creating something.

Another outlet for my creativity is crocheting.  I started seriously working at my crochet about 5 years ago.  My grandmother taught me the basics when I was a young girl but I was never interested in doing much more than the chain stitch or single crochet.  Not anymore!  I have learned to release my inner artist through fun colorful stitches!

There are so many websites now that have free patterns or cheap patterns and colorful yarns.  Some of these patterns are most certainly not the patterns my grandmother used.  I just have to look at the pictures of what other crocheters have created to get inspired.  In fact, I have been so inspired that I am going to complete the Masters of Advanced Crochet Stitches and Techniques program offered by the Crochet Guild of America.

The reason I can do this is because Papa God has shown me that He created me to express what is going inside.  I want to bring beauty and joy to others and frankly myself.  In the past I would look at what I am not doing and focusing on what needs to be changed that what I have been created to do was left undone.  I thought I needed to be doing things that were more “religious” and “disciplined”.  I could not do this creative stuff until I was doing what I should be doing in other areas.

I will say that Papa and I are still working on some areas of my life where I have not believed I could ever see changed.  For anyone who has known me for long, knows that food and my weight have been a reoccurring issue in my life.  I have done so many different diets and thought that being the perfect weight would make me happy!  Well, Papa loves me and I need to rest in that fact so that I know there is nothing that can change that.  I don’t need a diet to be healthy.  Papa has given me all I need for life and godliness.  I am finding that I can say “no” to sugary sweets.  That is big for me.  I have also found that when I want a sugary sweet that I don’t need feel like I am sinning to eat it.  I have no doubt that I am going to continue to see these positive changes continue.

I am hopeful for 2012 and this is not a feeling I have had in such a long time.  I am excited to meet the person Papa God has created me to be.  I am excited to see the beautiful things I will create and share with those I love!

Blessings to all my dear friends and loved ones.  You are dear to me!